past present future

This week has been one of those weeks where the past, present, and future collide to make one heck of a busy and stressful time but also made it a week of reflection.

Some of you know that on Monday I had a job interview in Liverpool. This was for a job working at The liverpool lighthouse doing detached work as well as a bit of church work and also working with excluded young people - so at first glance its full of the type of youth work I love. When you add to it that the agency and church is a church with music central to its work, specificaly gospel you will see that its a job that I would really enjoy. Interview went well and they have invited me back to a second interview this coming Monday.

The interview questions was obviously about me and my past experiences as well as my future and it was very interesting to be forced to look at the decisions ive made in the past and the way that I made them.

On Tuesday it was The Cubes 2nd birthday. An opportunity to celebrate the last 2 years successes as well as launching the next year in style. We had 109 young people in 2 hours who all seemed to enjoy a night of music and food. It was weird to look back and celebrate again whilst thinking about leaving (which most people connected to work dont know about).

Wednesday I went back to Liverpool to watch Liverpool play Cardiff. Whilst this doesnt automaticaly jump out at you part of supporting liverpool is the history of the club and I must admit I couldnt help but remember the moments of happiness that Liverpool has given to me over the years - especially as Robbie Fowler was playing for Cardiff and hes a hero to me.

So yeah lots of reflection over the past week, lots of thinking about the future, but the thing that has made me think most is speaking to friends I havent spoken to for ages. Without divulging names This week I have spoken to friends about marriages posibly failing, Ive spoken to friends who have recently had children and others who are pregnant, Heard from friends who are ill, and Ive heard from people who have never felt closer (and some who have never felt further) from God.

All of this has made me realise a bit more about love and the love of God as well as about life. First Im going to quote a friend who puts it like this....

"I have met my dream man. Most people would call me crazy, but I am sure that you met him, too. Granted, you won't exactly call him your dream man. LOL You might know him... Jesus Christ? For right now, He is all I need. It takes quite a bit to get to that point, but I am finally understanding it bit by bit. It is crazy I must say. I can't live without Him. How do I know? Because I wanted to walk away from it all about a month or two ago. I just couldn't though. I'm realizing what love is. It is much more than the flashy, fun, flirty love that this world knows. I still don't know it entirely, but I am seeing that a lot of this world has NO clue about love at all though. It's amazing to be able to say I love Jesus Christ and know and understand the meaning behind it."

Over all the things I have chosen to do in my life, and through everything that has been out of my control Ive always had the love of God to get me through it and no matter what the future holds this one thing will always be constantly true. People and situations change but God doesnt.

If you are one of the people Ive seen or spoken to this week know this - I will always strive to show as much as Gods love to you as God has to me. I will always strive to be a friend to you when you need it, a guide when you feel lost, a policeman when you need to be told your in the wrong, BUT I cant promise I will always be there for you - God can and will do all of these and more so remember him when you need him.

Im going to stop now coz im slightly melodramatic and your bored. Thanks for readng and please pray for me this coming weekend.