Is it just me?

Today I begin my first proper break from work since starting my new job in January. I do not have to do any work until Wednesday. I dont have to get up early, to do any planning, or anything associated with work! so.....

• why did I wake up at 4:30am this morning with lots of work issues running through my head?
• why did I at 6:30am decide the only way I was going to be able to relax is if I finished a funding bid off and so proceeded to finish it and send it off?
• why am I trying to find things to do which will remove the temptation to pop into work to just check out a couple of things, just in case?

I have never classed myself as a workaholic, certainly most who know me off line would say im the opposite, so why is it so hard for me to stop and remove myself from work at the moment?

is it just me that has this problem?

While I'm at it I have some more questions: -

• is it just me who finally finds people who want to spend time with him off line and as such finds a "social life" and then doesnt have the time to actually spend time with the aformentioned people?
• is it just me who has lost many on line friends because of lack of time or energy to be online, but also have found other people have "disapeared" themselves and now seem un-contactable?
• Is it just me who has lost the passion for the internet but at the same time cant leave it alone (hense the blog)?

For those of you who still read these blogs heres a quick update on my life: -

• Works going well but is very stressful, with the old adage of "youth work being easy if it wasnt for the adults" being as true now as it ever was!
• social wise Ive attended 2 wine parties and hosted one dinner party in the last month - which is more social action than i had for the previous 6 years lol
• house wise im planning on using my few days off to get it sorted, 3 months after moving in!
• holiday wise im planning on taking 2 weeks off in April to go abroad somewhere hot - if anyone wants to go with me let me know (seriously!)

so thats it for now.

No promises of regular blogs, bo promises of being online more often, basicaly nothing at all!

does anyone else think this was just anouther waste of time, or is it just me?