A catch up blog

well since I seem to be getting messages demanding a blog I thought I better oblidge.

Since my last blog Ive been so busy with so many different things that I really didnt have the motivation to write about my life when I was so busy living it.

So the main things that have happened have been the variety show and the general running of the cube.

The Variety Show, for those who dont know, was a show which I "jointly" (yeah right I did all the work) organised with my friend Benji in order to raise money for "Careforce" a charity who places people on year olds in churches across Britain (www.careforce.co.uk)

The 2 weeks before the show was an up and down period with people pulling out all the time and then us ending up with people wanting to be in the show at the last minute. Then the day itself arrived and it was superb. We had a belly dancer, a rock band, a singer, 3 comedians, a couple of amazing children acts, and a few other things (including a certain blogger destroying 2 of his favourite songs). I was the host as well, so was kept very busy keeping the show running.

We raised £280 in total, which we were very pleased with.

After that I could relax - wrong. I then needed to organise a BBQ for the volunteers of the Cube and keep it up and running and do lots of other things.

Il skip to the BBQ which took place in the pouring rain on wednesday and so we ended up having all the meat cooked in oven and playing uno extreme - until 11:10pm! Was great to have them round tho coz it felt like I had a social life - even if it was a work event.

But you dont want to know about work etc, you want to know about me. Well in the last blog I felt crap and had a bad day etc. Over the last couple of weeks Ive had my ups and downs, being so busy has left me drained - The happiest moment was gettin £460 refund from British Gas.

I guess what Id like to say to you all is that you dont know how special you are to me, sometimes you feel like your all I have.

I honestly feel my emotions and feelings are like a rollercoaster and sometimes i wanna get off and sometimes im excited by the bumps etc i see in the distance or have just gone over.

Theres a couple of really special people who have helped keep me sane over the last couple of weeks, but I dont think they know it. One of them is currently waiting for me to write this blog and whilst I dont want to look like Im sucking up to her I want her to know that no matter what life has thrown at her or decisions she has made in the past present or future Gods used them to turn a rock into a diamond - a beautiful one too! So you know who you are (and if you dont then ask me if its you and il confirm it!)

right I just got a message telling me to hurry up so il finish coz this lengthy blog is enough for now.

will do one tomoro on my first day off for 2 weeks! yay

love you all!

Me!

not a fun day

Todays been one of those days, you get them in youth work, those days where at the end of it the only question you want to ask is "whats the point?"

but its nor just in youth work its in life. without going into details friends can be hard work sometimes. I know they are worth it, and I appreciate all my friends but sometimes I wish God created us to be alone instead of with other people.

anyways im being careful what i type coz i dont want to bitch.

then tonight we had no young people - not a single one!

whats the point?

anyways Im praying that tomoro I wake up in a better mood coz I do prefer myself when im happy etc and i think most of you lot do too!

so for now farewell, this is why i didnt blog this before - you understand now lol

happy morety will see you all tomoro.

Laughing at life

Ive been thinking a lot recently about how strange lifes is, i meen just look at my reasons: -

I spend all my time at work thinking about when my next day off is only to spend my day off worrying about the things I have to do at work the next day.

I keep looking at my mobile wishing I recieve texts or phone calls so that I know i have friends that care etc but when my phone rings I start swearing and cursing "whos ringing me at a time like this?"

I complain theres nothing on TV but cant miss a certain programme every week/day just in case something interesting happens on it when Im not watching.

I complain I have no social life but when asked if I want to go out after a long day at work I say no i just want to chill out and have some space.

I can feel alone and lonely in a room full of people but comfortable and happy in a room with just me and God.

I can convince myself somethings true even if it isnt but if someone tries to convince me the same thing is true I wouldnt believe them.

so yeah lifes strange, we all knew that - whats my point?

well I guess my point is that if lifes so strange and if its human nature to laugh at things that we find strange (which I am told is the case) why is it so hard to laugh at life?

Over the last 26 years lots of stuff (good and bad) has happened to me and my family etc and when I talk about it I normally do it with a smile on my face and almost laugh about it - some say this is because if i dont laugh id cry but with me its different, I do look back and find it slightly funny the way things panned out!

The bad stuff shouldnt have happened - but when you look back you see how silly some of the things were - and how much comic value is in them.

The good stuff was a blessing at the time but is often the hardest stuff to remember - surely thats funny in itself

So yeah next time Im telling you about my parents divorce, my depression, or any other crap periods of my life with a smile and almost jokey sounding voice be assured Im not hiding anything Im learning to laugh at life.

Is this healthy? YES - why? cause life is funny - even if it doesnt seem like it when your living it!

I believe God has a sense of humour and has a plan for us, he doesnt turn us into jokes or cause us pain which we cant deal with but he gave us the ability to laugh at things because laughter is the best medicine (watch patch adams if you dont believe me!) and is one of the best things he gave us to help us through the bad times.

So next time you feel down, next time stuff is going wrong, infact every day that you live ask God the exact thing that I am asking God for at this very moment - ask God to let you laugh!

Life = a gift from God
laughter = a gift from God
You = a gift from God

Life + You + Laughter = a happy life (but not necesarily and easy life)

sorry this is random and possibly a bit too serious for a day off - you got to laugh dont you, when i started typing i had nothing to say!

not much to say

I havent actually got anything interesting to say today - the main thing that happend yesterday was to be told of by my boss for something which has nothing to do with work at all - but apparently in leadership everything is to do with work!

anyways so that i dont moan etc instead i chose to update my life story so if your bored enough to read it go to

http://www.faithforum.co.uk/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?f=56&t=3184&p=58277&sid=6e604545b8839337fbff00ad2d282e32#p58277

thanks

Stacey (to be fair)

Shes 19 years old today oh my
That really makes her old
An amazing welsh girl she is you know
could steal my heart anyday if she wished
everybody knows her charms
yay for stacey yay

Happy birthday now learn to celebrate properly!

proper blog of the busy weekend

well the weekend began on Friday (as it does every week) and il skip the day and jump to the brilliant evening I had. Went to see Riding Lights Roughshot theatre company at a church, and it was weird coz the first half was a mix of the random to the sublime. A number of short dramas based on the actors real lives, some very meaningfull some just plain random and weird. The second half was a touching drama about modern and historic slavery. Really touched me especially as it was sort of based on the tragedy in Morcambe where I spent a lot of time when I was studying. If they are in your area go watch them - really good night out.

I got home and had to finish off prep for saturdays stall at the carnival. I got to bed at 2am and awoke at 8am ready for my long day.

Basicaly the stall was a 2 minute quiz with a £20 prize at the end of the day to the person with the highest score. The main reason of us being there was PR, which meant a lot of running around in the morning so here goes.

at 9am I was at home printing off posters and other display items and laminating them whilst making sure my transport was sorted - he wasnt and agreed to meet me at 10am

At 9:30am I walked quickly into town to purchase 3 clipboards and some pens and to cut 500 flyers so that we had 1000 of them.

At 10:30am my transport arrived. We filled his van up and drove to the Baptist church where we had to pick up display boards and tables.... by the time van was full it was 11:15am

we then drove to my house to pick up the display material and a couple of deck chairs and left there at 11:29am. The deadline for arriving at the fair ground to set up was 12am so we were cutting it fine but should make it.

Just as we pull out into the main road the police stick a road closed sign up so we couldnt right turn, so we right turned anyways the police officer looking very angry until i wind down the window and shout "we have a stall for carnival" she turns and shouts exactly what I shouted to the next officer who then shouted again and then anouther... a bit like chinese whispers, im sure the last officer shouted "their fools for the carnival!" but they let us through and we joined a traffic jam (how if the road was closed was there a traffic jam?) and eventually arrived to set up at 11:57am - just in time!

we set up and the stand fell over, set up again and the stand fell over, and set up again and it stayed up. Then the crowds arrived!

Well basicaly it ended up being a 12 year old girl coming back again and again getting more right all the time and got a score of 17 and walked away believeing she was winning. The an hour before the end a 16 year old came and tried a few times equalised and then got 22, just as the 12 year old came to check she was still winning - she was gutted so tried 3 more times but could not get over 19.

Was funny coz all the adults who took part never got above 14 so once again it proves the education system works (and the questions were very tough!)

After all this I got home completly knackered at 7pm just in time to relax with dr who (great epotisode) and joseph (the tv show - IM NOT GAY!)

went to bed at 10pm(ish) and awoke this morning in time for church.

Todays highlights were :-

singing happy bday to stace over the phone and learning she doesnt know how to party or celebrate properly (and a bacon sarnie is not a cooked breakfast!)

chatting to Nat and wishing her happy bday etc and learning she doesnt know how to party or celebrate properly

leading a service tonight which went amazingly well (9ppl in congregation yay)

and now I think I will relax and try to switch off for a bit before bed.... roll on wednesday I need a day off!

Stace Happy birthday to you hope you had a goodun#
Nat you got your message so yeah happy bday

everyone else everytime i say comment or text I get about 2 comments and no texts so I wont bother this time and see who comments!

bye for now (I will put photos up when in next blog coz i cant be bothered to do the uploading thing now)

For Nat

Firstly I promised Nat I would write her and her alone a special birthday message so here goes

There was a girl called Nat
who liked to wear ears of a cat
Shed lived 20 years
Didnt like drinking beers
but she looked great in a hat!

(ok very poor lymeric but the point is hope you have had a great bday and you learn how to party before your 21st!)

there you go hope you dont feel left out from the previous post anymore!